I love this question! I've written about a lot of these things lately (Letting Go, Being Like Me, How will you celebrate you?), but I guess I can touch on them now too.
2012 has been a year of growth for me. I feel that I have learnt a lot; about myself, about life, about my children, about happiness, and about how Heavenly Father is aware of and cares for me.
At the beginning of the year my hubby and I had a tiny baby and an almost-2 year old... I was a full time mum with no study commitments, and Jonathan had just finished his diploma which meant he was home a lot while looking for a job. - And that has ALL changed. *jaw drops as, in writing this, I realise more has changes than I realised*
At the beginning of the year, I didn't feel confident that I could do what I was doing - taking care of two kids, WITH the help of my husband and WITHOUT chucking study in the mix...
- When the school year started I took up one subject to go toward my SACE, wondered time and again whether I was crazy for deciding to do it, but kept at it anyway.
- Jonathan found work, which although I knew was necessary and a blessing, also left me wondering how I could possibly do everything I was doing WITH his help, without it. Which in some crazy way I did. I should note that I certainly still had his help, it just meant he couldn't be there in tricky moments when both girls were demanding things like he had been to that point.
- There were also a lot of appointments related to Natalie's speech and her eyes, and Hayley's physio stuff.
- Somewhere along the line (maybe around July, but I can't remember exactly) I started up piano lessons again and sat an exam in October.
- And somehow - in some miraculous way - I actually feel less anxious and much more relaxed in life right now that I did when the year started.
And here I was wondering how I spent all my time this year. :P Well it wasn't easy... but that wouldn't be any fun, would it? :-)
Has that really all happened just this year?
There are a lot of people I couldn't have done this all without, and to them I will always be grateful. I hope you know who you are.
I'm grateful to know that I've grown.
I wonder if the fact that I am feeling more competent and confident than at the start of the year means that something else is heading my way to offer a new challenge?